My world feels like it has come to a screeching halt.
I am 17 weeks pregnant.
I went to the doctor today for an ultrasound and an amniocentesis.
The news was NOT good.
It appears that my child has not developed kidneys.
A person can not live without kidneys.
I will go back in a week to confirm.
If my baby does not have kidneys, it will not survive. My child will not live.
I feel torn apart and shredded.
My eyes will not stop leaking.
My head will not stop pounding.
My heart will not stop breaking.
Please send us positive thoughts.
Anonymous says
Oh Mami. I’m so sorry to hear this. Sending all my positive energy to you.
Anonymous says
My heart is breaking for you. Sending prayers, love, anything you possibly could need.
Tracie says
I am so sorry for to hear this. I’m sending positive thoughts, prayers, and virtual hugs your way.
brainella says
Oh, Mami. I am praying for all of you, sending you love.
Lorraine says
Sending prayers.
Auntnikki12 says
I am SO sorry, Mami. Sending you lots of love and warm hugs.
Anonymous says
I am not a praying woman, but I will pray for you and your baby. praying, praying, praying.
Mommyisinthebathroom says
I’m so sorry. Praying for you and your family.
Youngwifestale says
Oh, my goodness. I am so sad to hear this. I just said a prayer for you.
macey says
My heart is breaking for you friend. I am praying for you.
CK says
(((Unknown Mami)))
I’m so sorry that you guys are going through this right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kerri says
What heartbreaking news. I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you. Thinking about you and your family. Sending positive thoughts and energy your way.
ParticleNoun says
This is the worst thing. All of my thoughts. I know the pain of this, and know that it is consuming. I also know that knowing there is a wave of love and support washing over you can help ease things a little, but even a little is something.
Much love to you, and all of my good thoughts.
unknownmami says
I love you, thank you.
Rebecca says
Lots of prayers that everything is okay and the ultrasound tech was just not trained properly.
unknownmami says
I hope you are right, but of course they brought in the doctor and he couldn’t find them either. I hope they are both wrong.
Cuponeando says
Sending posivitive vibes your way. I really hope is just a horrible mistake. **hugs**
The Only Girl says
I’m so sorry. I’ll send good thoughts your way. Stay positive.
Joscelyn R Campbell says
Amiga, I’m praying for you and I’m here for whatever you need. Getting to know you personally this year, I know the wonderful mother and human being you are. My prayers, thoughts, and love are with you and your husband. Anything you possible need, please do not hesitate to let me know. -Con Carino-
Donda says
Mami, I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your family. If you need to talk, I am here.
Anonymous says
Mami, we are sending so much love to you to hold you up in strength for whatever you have to face.
Julie Diaz-Asper says
so sorry. a big abrazo and many prayers.
MsBabyPlan says
Oh, Mami… I am so, so sorry to hear this news. You and your baby are in my prayers. God will show the way where it seems there is no way.
A big Hug and be strong.
Yummyjones says
Many positive thoughts your way, dear! *hugs*
unknownmami says
Thank you for your kindness and positive thoughts.
Anonymous says
Sending prayers for you and your baby.
modernmami says
I am so so very sorry. I cannot even imagine the pain you and your family are going through. Definitely sending positive thoughts your way.
Liz C. says
Amgia,
Lost of prayers going your way…. LOTS!!!!!!
Sami says
Positive thoughts to you!
And remember, nothing is definite yet…
Hang in there sweetie!
Angelica Perez says
Unknown Mami, Be strong, amiga. Life only throws things at you that you can handle. Stay calm and know that we all feel for you.
Tara R. says
Oh Mami… I am so sorry! I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
Monica says
Ay, mami. Praying that it is indeed just a mistake. Much love and comfort for you and your family, including the child within you. May God hold you all very, very close.
Rena says
Oh dear. I will keep you in my thought. Lets not give up hope, mistakes and false reading do happen.
Heidi says
My heart is aching for you and I have tears in my eyes. I know there is nothing that I can say to make the worry, fear, anger and pain vanish. You and your wonderful family do not deserve this and it makes me so sad that you have to go through this. Still, I want to remind you that your baby, whether s/he lives or not, is lucky to have you as his/her mother.
I am sending you lots of love and positive vibes. If there is absolutely anything I can do, please just ask.
*big hug*
The Bipolar Diva says
I am so sorry, words cannot begin to express my sorrow. You will be in my thoughts continually. Please keep us updated. Much love you you and your family.
Teri
Rory Mama_contemporanea says
Amiga, te envio toda la energia positiva. Dios te bendiga!
Silvia says
Sorry to hear what you and your family is going through, I hope is a misunderstanding. Sending you tons of hugs, I’ll be praying for you all.
Adrienzgirl says
Love and prayers coming your way Mami!
Anonymous says
I am so sorry that you have received such devastating news – you will be in my thoughts all week.
Monkey Man says
So sorry. So very sorry. You are in our hearts.
Amy says
No words could express how awful this is. You have my prayers.
Latinaish says
{{{Abrazos}}} I know that doesn’t even begin to put a dent in what you’re feeling right now. I am so sorry. You have so many people who are here for you if you need us. Thinking of you and your family.
mimbles says
I’m so sorry Mami, my heart goes out to you and your family. Sending you positive thoughts and *hugs*
Anonymous says
Mami, I am so terribly sorry. My heart and prayers go out to you. Abrazos!
Ana L. Flores says
I am so sorry you have to go through this. I hope no matter the outcome, you can find the love and support this community is here to give you. Un abrazo!
unknownmami says
Muchisimas gracias.
Jeannette says
You have my prayers. No tengo palabras. What you are going through is heartbreaking. May the outpour of love in all of these comments at least comfort you and give you strength.
Tina says
Mami,
My heart breaks for you. I am so very sorry and I can’t imagine how you are feeling right now. I hope this is a mistake. I hope you have lots of support and love around you. I am sending all my thoughts and positive energy your way.
All my best,
Tina
The Absence of Alternatives says
Oh dear. I saw this post in my inbox and my hands are weak now when I try to type these words. I will be thinking of you and the baby. {{{{hugs}}}}
Marta says
So, so sad and painful. Praying!
Anonymous says
I am so sorry. Praying for your comfort and strength. If I can do anything please let me know. Praying my hardest that they made a mistake. ((HUGS))
Kristen says
Oh Mami. My heart truly goes out to you. I will be praying for you my friend.
Dwmatty says
Oh Mami, I’m so sorry to hear this. Let’s hope that there is a mistake and that there is better news the next visit.
Kaylen says
My heart ahces after reading this. I can’t imagine the pain and anguish you are going through – my best wishes towards you and your wee one. I will think really great thoughts about kidneys all week!!! Please keep us updated.
Anonymous says
Oh, that sucks Mami. Sending prayers in your (and God’s) direction.
Denisse - Ahorros para Mamá says
Praying for you and your beautiful family, mi amiga.
Nichol says
I just found this and cannot begin to say how sorry I am. My heart is breaking, I’m hoping for the best and sending thoughts and prayers to you.
steven anthony says
I am typing through tears…my friend you are such a sweet spirit. I am sending all the good thoughts I have your way….praying.
many many hugs.
The Good Cook says
Oh Mami! Oh. Oh. Oh. I am praying for you and pudpie and husband. I am praying so hard for all of you. And of course for that little in you. I just don’t know what to say, I want to hug you and make all of this go away.
Melani says
Oh Mami! I will pray for you and your family and your baby. Try to think positive, have Unknown Papi make you a hot cocoa…
loripeterson says
Sending you lots of love, prayers and hugs!
Carrie @ Tiki Tiki Blog says
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Sending you love and light.
michelle says
All my best prayers coming your way
xoxoxo
Georgina99 says
I’m sending you lots of love and prayers. I wish I could do more, but I hope you can take comfort knowing that there are many, many people out here who are sending all their thoughts and prayers to you and your family. – G
KINGOFNEWYORKHACKS says
Positive thoughts, prayers and good luck honks being sent your way…Deep breaths UM…there are angels watching over you. Peace.
Marlaahansen says
Oh Mami….No! No! No! I feel sick and sad and can’t stop crying. Say the word and I am on a plane to hold your hand, watch Put Pie, clean your toilets, cook for you, whatever you need. I hate this!! But I also am praying and will not stop praying. I love you, my bloggy friend. With all my heart….
Anonymous says
Oh no, I am so sorry to hear this! Will be praying for your family!
Lori says
Words cannot express how sorry I am. Sending positive thoughts and prayers and hugs your way. XX
BLOGitse says
So sorry…sending strength and wisdom, hugs…
Blasé says
Prayers from Blasé
unknownmami says
Thank you.
Kimberly says
Definitely POSITIVE thoughts being sent your way. I’m sure waiting this week will be rough. Take care of yourself!
Coby says
Oh Mami! My heart aches for you and Papi. Praying, praying, praying! Sending you lots of love and hugs!
MA Fat Woman says
My prayers are with you!
Cinner says
Mami, I am so saddened to hear this, sending you love, prayers and heartfelt hugs.
Anonymous says
Oh Mami I’m so sorry. You guys are in my thoughts.
gaelikaa says
With you in spirit and in constant prayer for you and your child….
Akanksha Singh says
take care may lord bless you..!!!
unknownmami says
Thank you.
Akanksha Singh says
take care.. mami.. may lord bless you and the baby!
unknownmami says
Thank you for your kindness.
Anonymous says
Oh Mami, I am so very sorry. I am praying, HARD. xoxo
Holly Briley says
Positive thoughts from me to you. Ive been through this twice… email me if you need to talk. Im here midwesternmamah@gmail.com
brian says
i just heard over at marlas…i am so sorry…know that we are praying for you and your baby…
julialadewski says
oh sweetheart, i’m so sorry. please know that i’m praying for you. hoping that the doctors can find those little kidneys!! love and God bless
unknownmami says
Thank you.
blueviolet says
Oh sweetie, I will pray for you and I’m sending you love and hugs!
Ttownsend says
Oh dear Lord. There are no words. Praying, praying, praying and sending all of the positive thoughts I have your way.
Lauren Hale says
((hugs)) and lots of prayers.
unknownmami says
Thank you for your kindness and support.
Aging Mommy says
I read the first few lines of this post and my heart broke for you. I am so very sorry you are having to go through this awful time. Is there any way to get seen again sooner, I know how waiting in such circumstances is unbearable.
My thoughts are with you, I am hoping upon hope for good news for you.
Emily says
Oh Mami, I am so sorry to hear this. I started to write something that I thought might be wise, but having never been in your position before I erased it. I will only send you good thoughts, prayers, and wish for a miracle for you.
pureJOY says
saw this on a tweet. all of us mothers are bonded together and all of us have burdened hearts for you. i will be praying for you… and for your sweet baby.
jenny says
Oh my…I am so sorry! Just tuning in and wanted to let you know you’re in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there and stay positive! I’m sending Hugs!
Amy Hansen says
Lord, you have shown us that you are a caring, loving, HEALING God. And we know that you can use all things for your Glory. Please be with this family as they go through what is likely to be the most difficult time of their lives and continue to pour our your compassion, love and comfort on Mami as you lift her up and give her strength. In Jesus precious name, Amen.
Oscar says
Oh Mami I will pray hard for you!
unknownmami says
Thank you.
Christine says
I am sending you all the positive thoughts one person can send. I am SO terribly sorry.
Saltsays says
Oh no. I’m so sorry. I’m sending all the good vibes I have for positive news.
You’re in my prayers.
Catalina says
Oh Mami, I truly hope the doctors can give you better news next week. Sending you well wishes, hugs, comfort and, hope.
Melinda says
Sending positive thoughts Mami, take care of yourself.
Girl Scrappy says
{{hugs}} I can’t even begin to imagine how scared you are. {{hugs}} Lots of prayers going up for a miracle. {{hugs}}
Veronica says
Oh no…So sorry to hear about this. Sending you much strength to get through this time.
bethakaconfusedhomemaker says
I’m praying. Praying. Praying. Praying.
Marcela Beatty says
Thinking of you, and sending prayer and love your way. I am so sorry this is happening.
Good thoughts,
your friend,
Marcela
VM Sehy Photography says
I am so sorry to hear about this. I am hoping that the ultrasound is wrong somehow. Sending hope and prayers your way.
Anonymous says
Praying for you, your child, and the tough days ahead!
unknownmami says
Thank you.n
Anonymous says
OMG! OMG! I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I hope you are OK. That is ridiculous, I am sure that you are not – but please know that I am thinking of you. We all are. Let us know what we can do to help. Much love and many prayers for you and your little one and your entire family.
unknownmami says
Thank you for your kind support.
MyLittleMiracles says
I know that pain, I Lost a baby at 16 1/2 weeks. But you know what I believe….I believe in Miracles, So stay positive, it’s not healthy for you or the baby to have such negative energy. And no matter what, your baby knows you love him/her!
Believe….I do, and I will say a prayer for your Miracle!
I am sending you all my love and hugs and heart felt prayers!
Amy says
Words and empathy can only go so far. I hope, though, that you feel the love pouring through the comments and that you are lifted up on wings of prayer. Praying along with others that the ultrasound is proven wrong–but if not, that you are given the grace and strength to make it through this recent challenge.
Rawknrobyn says
I am so sorry. I’m sending lots of prayers and good thoughts your way. (I’m here thanks to Marla.) Take gentle care.
xoRobyn
Rene W. says
I am saying prayers for you – I cannot imagine how that must feel. Thank you so much for your kind words as I was going through tribulations with my dad… Take care, my friend!
mrsblogalot says
I am wishing the biggest wish of hope for you right now my friend. I am so sorry to hear this.
Lindsay @ Just My Blog says
Mami I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I will keep you in my prayers.
LisaCrazyAdventuresinParenting says
Prayers and positive thoughts being sent your way <3
Katie says
You and your baby are in my prayers.
unknownmami says
Thank you.
Anonymous says
I don’t know what to say except count me in on the prayers heading your way. If a bloggy stranger can do ANYTHING for you please don’t hesitate to ask.
unknownmami says
Thank you for your kindness.
Brandi. says
I cannot imagine what you are going through and will not pretend to do so.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!
Eternal Lizdom says
Praying for you, the baby, your family. I am so, so sorry.
Betty says
I´m so sorry! I haven´t been reading up on blogs much lately, but Jeanie sent us this way and I´m glad she did. I will be praying for you!
DialmforMinky says
Oh my God. It’s been ages since I’ve been to visit you…I feel terrible and this is not the news I want to hear! I will be praying like crazy, positive thoughts for your little one…and SO much love coming at you.
unknownmami says
Thank you.
Nezzy says
Oh sweetie, my heart and prayers are with you and you sweet little one. We serve a God of miracles and I am so prayin’ He has a big one for you. I have seen many unexplained and supernatural miracles happen through the power of prayer.
God bless your sweet family and know we are here to lift you up.
Anonymous says
My dear, sweet, beautiful, strong friend,
I am so sorry that I have been away this week. I will be showering you and your baby with all the prayers and warm thoughts that I can muster. I will hold you on my heart just as I am sure that God will hold you in His hands. God bless, my friend. You are loved. And you are not alone.
With my love,
Traci
betty says
came over to your blog from Jeanie’s; I’m so sorry; I will keep you in my prayers
betty
Modernmom says
Oh Hon….sending you hugs, positive thoughts, ans prayers.
Helene1108 says
I’m so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Mike Smith says
I read about you on The Fifty Factor. My thoughts are with you and I hope you find the strength to cope. It is clear so many people love you and I’m sure they’re praying for you.
Pearl says
Oh, honey, I am so, so sorry. Let’s wait until the next ultrasound, okay? Maybe they’ve made a mistake.
I am sending all the love I possibly can and will keep you in my thoughts during yoga tonight.
Pearl
Anonymous says
Oh sweetie!!! Reading this post is totally making me bawl. I am so sorry that you are going through so much worry and pain. But happy to know that you’ve received improved news since this post. I will continue praying for the health of your baby. And hopefully the sonograms are just plain wrong and that everything is perfectly okay. I wish I could hug you!