It’s true: I’ve been dumped. Don’t worry, not by my husband. It’s nothing as serious as that; it’s far more petty. I’ve been dumped by one of my followers and to tell you the truth it hurts a little. This is the first time I’ve been “un-followed” and it feels like a bit of a break-up.
The whole thing is silly and just goes to show how insecure and neurotic I can be. You see, when I started this blog in April I did not expect to have any followers except for a few friends that I coerced (thank you Maureen), but strangely enough I now have a few followers and most of them are not people I’ve ever met in person. And you know what? I like it. I feel honored that anyone would want to read what I have to write.
My following is small. It’s not like I won’t notice if somebody dumps me.
Today I found out that I was no longer worthy of someones gaze. OMG! I felt like an insecure teenager.
What did I do? Why don’t they like me anymore? Is it because I posted a picture of a gigantic walking penis for Pride on my weekly Sundays In My City feature? Because it seems to have happened right after that post. Is it because I am supportive of my gay brothers and sisters? Is it because I don’t know how to use punctuation correctly.
After a few seconds of this, I semi-snapped out of it and reminded myself that I started a blog for myself. It is wonderful to have followers, but even if I didn’t have any I would keep on posting. I do not want to censor who I am and I can not second guess myself.
I have no idea why I lost that follower. Maybe she or he ( but it’s a she) just thought I was boring. I can admit that my ego took a small bruising, but to quote Popeye, “I am what I am and that’s all that I am.” You can take me or leave me. I just hope you don’t all leave me cause I like you, I really like you.
Oh and just to top things off, I gave my daughter a bath and she took a big ol’ dump in the bath tub. What is it with me and dumping today?
Update: Turns out I was not dumped, just technical difficulties. Just goes to show that I am neurotic. I spend all this time making up a story that doesn’t even exist. Why do I do this to myself?
I'm staying! And not just 'cuz your punctuation is mighty fine…As for "dumps," I've talked about both my daughters' dumps today so you're definitely not alone in that arena!
I know it's a challenge to just do what you enjoy…, and not count followers. And you are not alone, just a couple of days ago I have been un-followed too on my new blog A Beach Lovers Place!
hahah, you know you're a true mommy when having to clean up a floating piece of crap barely phases you, but losing a "friend" ruins your day. LOLI love your blog, she just wasn't cool enough for you.
You probably have more followers who either don't blog or whose blogs aren't on blogspot that can't visibly follow you. Like me. I follow you through a blog reader.
I've been really torturing myself about this recently. I said to the hubs just yesterday, "If I stopped writing and commenting, what would happen? You know what would happen? Nothing, that's what would happen." He asked if I thought I'd cease to exist. "In a manner of speaking, um, yes."Sorry about your day, that sucks, but you're right – do it for you. (and for me! I won't leave!)
Aw… I can be neurotic like that too… But what always makes me feel a little better is when I think, 'F*ck it. Their loss'. What's the point of having personal blog if we must censor what we feel or think? In doing that, we're just lying to ourselves, and those who are faithfully following us. Seriously, that person doesn't know what they're missing =)
Sounds like a dumpy kind of day. Like you said, you write for your self, the rest of us are along for the ride. People will get on and off along the journey.
I should be comforting you but I'm laughing at the thought of your daughter's poop coming at you in her bath. Sorry. I'll stop giggling now.You know what, sometimes followers are following waaay too many blogs and they feel overwhelmed with having to keep up with everyone else's life including their own. They then start to pare down their "Follow" list and it's not a personal thing, they just pare it down to the 2 or 3 they can handle reading in a day that they've been following for a really long time. Perhaps that's what happened.Either way, don't worry, Hermana. You still got me. 😉
I've lost a few over the year I have had mine. It just happens sometimes 🙁
This would be something I would dwell on too. But then, in the same fashion, I'd remind myself to snap out of it and remember I'm blogging for me. Congrats on the award up there! :o)
Ive lost a few too and it hurt my feelings. Then, as I reached the 200 mark of the # of blogs I was following I decided to cleave. I went to the manage my blogs section and tried to unfollow the blogs that had a huge following and wouldn't notice that little ol me was gone. I an down to 185 now. Still a lot! Wouldn't it be nice to have over 100 followers? Sorry about the dump in the tub. I can't potty train my 3 year old for the life of me. I had one success over the weekend and then it was back to dump in the diapers. sigh
LOL I lost almost all of my followers too!!! I think mostly because, I didn't give them the flavor in the day…or yes, I misspelled a word or two…But honestly, you are an amazing person and writer. I wish I could write this well in two languages. Sadly, my spoken spanish sounds like a third grader on crack! (Although all my spanish speaking parents are apprecitive I try!)Keep it up. You have a great place here, and if you like it…that is all that should matter.