This week I realized that when I really want something I can make it happen even when it seems like it’s not going to happen. I guess it has to do with the Universe conspiring to make me happy and I’m not opposed to being happy.
On May 20, I will celebrate another birthday. I will be 42-years-old. I’m just starting to peak. It doesn’t suck to be a late bloomer. In fact, it’s kind of awesome.
A few years back there were some dark moments. Nothing truly awful, just my state of mind. I felt like there was no way out of where I was, like no progress was being made, like it was all just going to be a whole lot of the same thing and a whole lot of the same struggles. I was wrong. Things weren’t all that dark, I was making progress, there are a whole lot of possibilities and there always have been, all the struggles have led to successes.
I spend most of my days writing. Writing helps me get to know myself better and the better I get to know my self, the kinder I am to myself.
There are moments in my life where joy is palpable. Moments of sheer bliss where I can not believe my good fortune. When I first started to spend “real” time with the man that is now my husband, joy was everywhere. I felt it in the spaces between my fingers and toes, I felt it surrounding my heart, I felt it even when I doubted that what I was feeling was “real” because joy isn’t supposed to last.
Joy has been so palpable lately that I can almost hold its hand throughout the day and snuggle up to it at night. Sometimes I find it hard to believe that I deserve such joy or that what I am feeling joyful about it truly worth being joyful about, but I have no desire to fight joy. I am not opposed to being joyful.
And now your Friday Fortune Cookie
(don’t forget to add “in bed” at the end, if you are so inclined):
Just give in to joy.
Hosted by Mrs. 4444
Being happy with yourself gives you a good foundation to create more joy for the world around you. Thanks for sharing some in your post.
Isn’t it great to finally just be comfortable in your own skin. It’s can be a lot of work getting there, but it’s such a relief to be there.
Keep up the writing!
You are blessed and rightfully so! Have a great weekend!
Happy Birthday and Happy, Happy. 🙂
Love the picture, yellow is my favorite color. I’m glad your happy and have a fabulous birthday. My daughter will be 32 tomorrow the 18th!
Happy bday! so glad you found joy!
What a fantastic gift to yourself. I’m so happy that you are happy. xoxo
Sometimes, life does get better as we get older. I have found that to be true in my life. I had a milestone birthday this year, the big five and o. Life is good!
Feeling joy in the spaces between your fingers and toes – I like tha r!
Your happy makes me happy!
Love you! Hugs! Such an inspiring post – made my heart sing!
I feel lots of joy too… but sometimes there is NO JOY. Life eh?
I loved your post, love that you are so happy.
ONWARD…
We all deserve joy; revel in it!
So glad that you’ve found your happy!
Have a happy birthday! Although, it seems you already are 🙂 So very happy for you, too!
This makes me happy. I have been struggling recently with my state of “progress” and you have reminded me that it is happening and things still can and will happen. I am glad that we are “late bloomer”s together. You continue to inspire me. I hope that tomorrow is a beautiful birthday for ou. You certainly deserve it.
<3
Traci